I'm feeling lost...

By onehearttwokeys on Sun, 01-29-12, 13:35

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It seems like everyone is falling apart... More things keep coming out about my boyfriend of 3 1/2 years (bestfriend of 10 years)... Tensions are high... I'm ready for something...anything... A sign?? I don't know what I'm doing... I know I can't save him... but god do I want to... I wonder if he truly realizes how close I am to leaving... Does he worry about it? Worry about me leaving? I know he's trying... He's been really good about all this... But I'm afraid if we do this intervention... he'll become suicidal again... And what if... this is the "best" he'll ever be because of his brain injuries... What if this is it?? I don't know... I don't know what to do... I miss him... Even though I'm in the same room with him... I just miss him... Does that even make sense?? I get knots in my stomach thinking about this whole situation... the lying... the stealing... the cheating... the addictions... What do I do? Where do I go from here? I just want him back... my bestfriend... I want that guy back... He's in there, somewhere... but do I keep fighting for him?? I hate this...

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By April on Sun, 01-29-12, 14:13

Your giving him the best GIFT (intervention) you could have ever given him, so keep that in mind, even though he may not see it that way yet.

Your making mature, adult decisions & you must continue staying focused & proceeding forward while keeping your best interests at heart too, cause you know this type of lifestyle is going nowhere & does endanger everyone surrounding him. What your doing now will last a lifetime & your making the best choice because you know HE has to do this for himself & no one else.

It all takes time hon, so you have to consider yourself & not let him lead you or anyone else over the cliff. Let him do this, sure he may fall along the way but it needs to happen, let him do something to be proud of himself about.

Choose wisely, treat kindly

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By Marygr on Sun, 01-29-12, 16:34

I'm so sorry you are going thru all this. I know it is very hard when you love someone, but try and remember to take care of yourself, first most.

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